I know it's not right to have the urge to take MC again. Especially after a PH off day.
BUT, my mood seems to be like a swing, going ups and downs.
I thought, i'm strong, I have recovered.
But I guess I can't bluff myself.
I have not yet recovered...
1 yr 7 months . . . not long and not short.
Suddenly, Randomly. . .
I will think of how you use to fetch me back and froth from work.
I will think of how silly we are in the past.
We used to swim together, play together.
I will also think of how you use to scold me not to buy things and spend money.
How we use to argue over small little things,
How you went to buy my favorite food when I demand that I want it .
How you complain here and there.
How you hug me and pat me to sleep.
more and more and more...
Why will I still think about all this..
Oh Lord,
Bless me with wisdom. :)
I'm so tired of thinking. .
Don't even feel like working anymore,
Feel like just shutting down myself and take a long long rest .
Which is impossible.
Time will show everything.
No point of me thinking so much.
God's bless me please. !
Time to go work. .
BACK to reality .
