Been quite a while since I last blog. Life have been busy because I have started my night shift recently. :)
But, I feel that I still have many skills to buck up.
Some times I'm thinking, is nursing really my passion?
Am I really happy being a nurse?
I do not know the answer. At first I can confirm that I love it.
But now after I start work, passion for nursing dropped.
Due to plenty of reason, I still love my patients but. . .
There are times when the passion will just decreased and decreased.
:(((
Schooling life and working life is totally different.
Schooling, everyone is a team.
There's no fights no backstabbing everything.
But working life is ... stressful, people fights to do well, gossips arise.
Been thinking, why must all this happen?
The reason is this is life.
Everyone acts like this for no reason.
I must accept that this is the fact. I can't change that.
I must accept this fact.
Sighs.
Family wise,it's not getting good, it's getting worse.
Stress have been piling up. Nobody seems to understand me.
Or rather to say I don't wish to understand anyone at some point of time.
That's pathetic of me some time.
A broken family is not really that great for me.
I thought I will be ok, BUT the fact is I'm not OK at all.
:((((((((((((
Relationship wise... do not know.
Sigh, sometimes I feel that he understand me, sometimes,
he just don't .
I'm happy that he's starting his business now.
But, sometimes I feel that he just neglect me.
Overall I'm happy with him if he don't show attitude. :p
Loves you. thanks for being there for me.
don't b so naughty that's all.
pls understand that I got work and you don't have.
So you don't know how tiring I'm .
Sometimes life is so full of shit.
Been thinking what if one day I'm gone?
will everyone miss me?
will everyone be the same as now or will they change some how?
I can't be so negative.
I wanna b positive but some how can't.
I wanna go church more often but something is pulling me back.
:(((((((((((((((
WO HAO LEI...
I need boy to sayang me. hehe
GOOD NIGHT > @_@
