▸ ANOTHER BLOW TOWARDS ME, . ... ♬
Saturday, January 02, 2010
♥ posted at: @11:04 PM
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Just before the start of clinical attachment,
which is just tomorrow, 4th of Jan.
Received calls early in the morning around 5am.
Was sleeping so I didn't went to pick up,
during 7a.m, god brother knock on my windows.
Telling me a news I don't ever wish to hear.
He told me that my Grandma have pass away
& I need to go back to Indonesia.
Call up my teacher,telling him I will be going on Thursday.
I don't know what to react, sitting down there looking motionless.
Just last month, she is in Singapore admitted to Mount Elizabeth.
Just a month ago, she leave this world.

Though I know she is not going to live long but,
Why must God bring her back home so fast.
Yesterday I just pray hard that she will be fine,
In the end early this morning, God took her away from us.
She leave this world with lots of pain because of her cancer.
But, she got all the love from us.
After all, she got nothing to regret.
Cousin asked me to go back this weekend,
but i reject her because school is starting.
Why must i reject her?
Why am i not there to be with my Grandma till her last breath?

My grandma have always been healthy till recently.
I have always thought of her living long enough to see me married.
But why have God decide to bring her home so fast.
She have always been a kind & good Grandma.
Always good to her children & grand children.
I didn't even realised she is sick,
Didn't even ask when she complains of being unwell.
She is gone for good, never gonna come back.
One blow after another blow for me.
No longer can hug her, talk to her, kiss her & see her anymore.
She is no longer there to nag at me anymore.

Every time when I'm back in Indonesia,
Grandma will always be there to take care of me.
No matter what stuffs, she will be there.
I know she loves bags & perfume.
Whenever i brought perfume for her, she will never bear to use it.
Every time, she will give me money to buy things I like.
When can't she wait till its my turn to give her money,
Why can't she wait till I'm much more bigger.
Ya, time will never wait for anyone.
But, I will never forget her.

Suddenly, I realised that I don't have much pictures when her
as i grow bigger & bigger.
Time spend with her is also not that much because
I'm in Singapore & she is in Indonesia.
Friends told me, my grandma will not wish to see me being so sad.
I will be strong, I will walk her last journey with her.


The last picture we take together when she is still well.


ME & My Grandma.

Believe that she will rest in peace,
God have taken her home to relieve her pain.
Also believe that my Grandfather will take good care of her.
She will always be the best Grandma in my heart.
I love you ah ma.
Please let me dream of you tonight.
I've have lots to tell you to talk to you.
Another 3 more days & back to Indonesia.
To accompany my Grandma for 3 days 3 nights.
We will always remember you.

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