Thursday, June 19, 2008
♥ posted at: @11:32 AM
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Spend my whole day at home sleeping today.
I slept quite early yesterday night but i don't know
why i still slept till so late. I had a bad headache when
i wake up. Not a good feeling, maybe i should see
a doctor soon. =) Tomorrow going Mother's
work place to disturb her. Yesterday night, my dad
came into my room to watch soccer till around morning,
but i feel so strange. It seems like a stranger sitting
beside me. Not much of a Daddy image anymore.
Some things or feelings, when its gone, its gone.
It will never be back anymore. Or rather i say it is hard
to be back again. A broken family cannot be form back like
its original. Like a broken glass that cannot carried any
water like the past anymore.
So sad to have this kind of feelings but i can only say,
he didnt treasure us.
Sighs, problems surrounds me, mother keep asking me
weird question. I can see that she is feeling sad but i cannot
helps much. On the other hand, i disappoint her. I didn't
study nor help out the family matters.
I have many dark secret she didn't know & she cannot knows.
I feel stressed, i really do.
I feel regret for my decision at that point of time.
Who will know how i feel deep inside? I doubt no one..
Bb, will u lend me ur shoulder?
Will you give me hugs when i need so?
Will you give me a kiss when my tears drop?
Will you listen and help to my problems?
Will you be there with me?

Say no more, i shall stop here. Bye everyone.
PS: I thought i can forget n forgive myself, but in reality
i cannot. I have dreams about you & its keeps on going n going.
But even though its like this, i still have to forget the past and keep
going. Loves.



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